Life pre-COVID was one of sports, activities and endless (though happy) obligations, peppered achingly with seeds of nostalgia. Nostalgia for a time when Sundays meant church and family dinner at 2pm. When kids ran outside at any chance possible to play unsupervised with neighbors. When birthdays meant your favorite home cooked meal, coupled with homemade cake and recycled candles. When life was centered at home. There were days when I longed for days long gone…
I attributed my feelings to some kind of crazy mid-life daydream, never to be realized.
And then COVID began.
Since March 13, the days have flown into months. Being blessed with good heath and stable employment, my family spends a good deal of time talking about gratitude—how grateful we are for our healthcare workers, delivery folks, mail carriers, grocery workers, teachers. And how sad we are to think about all the lives lost and neighbors struggling. We are talking more about giving and the importance of charities. The importance of social responsibility and community health. And of creativity and of science. From this awful reality, a lot of important conversations (and action) have come.
(And on a much, much lighter note, I’ve been able to live out those midlife nostalgic daydreams. Pulling out craft kits that had accumulated from years of birthday gifts, my kids and I soon covered our kitchen counters with pinch pots, yarn animals, and popsicle stick catapults. We dusted off board games, Lego sets, and yard toys. Played hours of driveway basketball and ping pong (sometimes on rollerblades). Read piles of classic books. Watched movies together a few nights each week.)
Yes, I miss my extended family. My friends. My coworkers. Life as it was. And yes, I’m 100% sick of my own voice breaking up sibling fights. But there is so much good in each day too.
And I’m wondering how life will look when this is over. How my kids will remember this time. Will they remember the rush of pre-COVID life or the pause of now. And I wonder which they will have midlife nostalgia for when they turn 40.

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